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времени.нет
просто тупо нет. ни - на - что
моего Маркиза заставляют отдать. а у меня паника. во первых потому что он единственное что меня удерживает от срывов потому что когда с ним играюсь обо всём забываю. и во вторых потому что мне некому его отдать так что бы потом через годик забрать обратно.


к этому всему в субботу я позвонила винни. всё как обычно. мне было очень грустно.
думала о бабушке, что домой хочу и тд. зная что он как абычно будет занят я всё же
позвонила ЕМУ и в слезах. а я МАЛО кому в слезах звоню. нонет. он был занят.
повесила трубу и с тех пор мы не говорили. всё по повторной.

зато я написала Маркусу.

hey marcus
listen. im really sorry to be dragging you into all of this again. im sure you have enough to worry about already, but can you just tell me if vinny is with someone else right now? not this second obviously, but u know. cuz if there is someone else like taylor or anybody in the picture, then i can't do this anymore. i just dont know who or what to believe right now and i trust you.
i would've been thinking that we're done and all, but if we were then why would he call that night when he was with you and cry on the phone right? and i fucking believed that. so if he wants to start clean, then what happened? i mean everytime i feel lonely or i just need to talk to someone, my first instinct is to call a few of my friends, cuz i know they'll listen. but then i think that 'should'nt i be calling the one i love? cuz hes supposed to be my best friend right?' and everytime i end up calling him i already know he's gonna be busy, out with friends, or just not really into it cuz he doesn't like it when im not in the mood cuz it supposedly makes HIM sad. i know that everytime i dial and hear the tone. but then i still hope that maybe this time he will actually tell his friends to wait for a bit and he will actually hear that im crying and ask me whats wrong. it just never happens.
i don't think that its a normal healthy relationship when it only goes one way and he only texts me when he suddenly "realizes", yet hes never there for me.. i dont think i should be calling and go like " hi im crying if you hadn't noticed, could you please talk to me and tell me its going to be ok" i mean it used to be like whenever u feel like you love her/him, you text or call just to let him/her know" now its not.
again, sorry for this, right now i feel like you're probably the only one who would understand and who is close to him. i just cant live through this again. the not knowing part is just killing me. we either move on or we don't

потом вот что он мне ответил.

dont worry about dragging me into all of this and i'd be happy to tell you what all is going on
the whole taylor thing was realy stupid
she is some immature girl who gets around
she liked vinny for a while and she all of a sudden was all oh we're dating and i asked him about it and he's all no i didnt say that
as in he didnt ask her out
she just assumed that because they've been hanging out that theyre dating or whatever

i know that vinny is usually busy with his friends or something else but he realy does care about you
he's told me so many times how much he loves you and how me and him are gonna go visit you sometime next summer or sometime next year
he even said that when we get our appartment he wants to bring you down here so you can live with us
;D
he realy loves you alot
if it wasnt true then i wouldnt say it
if you need to talk about it or something you can always call or text me
but i assure you that there is nothing to be worried about

я пока незнаю что написать.
и кстате я получила фотографии с того дня когда на СиЭн тауер лазили))вот

@темы: vinny<3

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котик хороший,хочу что бы тебе его оставили.надо придумать какуе-нибуть убедительную причину!!

[FeaTuRelesS]

1.ti pohudela!klevo!rada za tebja))
2.za4em ego otdavatj na god ili na vremja?! oni odnogo tak uze otdali!ih ne zaebalo li6atj tebja vsego samogo svetogo, samogo blizkogo, neznogo horo6ego i dorogova serdcu?! eto zestoko i nepraveljno! kak mozno dumatj toljko o sebe! ja o4enj nedovoljna....
3.daaa,vse klevo, ljubovj morkovj! noo za4em tratitj zapas ljubvi esle eta ljubovj zaklju4aeca v odnih slovah i bez edinogo dejstvija dabi dokazatj eto! ego zada4a i tak vo mnogo raz pro6e teh ljudej,katorie rjadom v pare! u nego ne voznikaet s toboj takih konfliktov kak u takih par,net problem iz za melo4ej! neuzeli tjazelo bitj hotjabi moraljno blizko?! u menja takaja ze beda bila kada ja znala 4to lis menja ljubitj no otno6enija govnistee nekuda. dlja sebja ja re6ila 4to nado rasstaca no togda vse izmenilosj hotj nemnogo no v lu46uju storonu! ja ne ponimaju...

ja toze ne ponimaju za4em otdavatj bednjagu markiza?on takoj mioilij..on rizij da?
xexe poxudela..molodca
pora uze dumatj o 4emto novom..nezaciklivaca..nu 4to podelae6 blin...eto ziznj

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lovebug я тоже хочууу блииин. винни хочет чтоб я ему кинула)

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FeaTuRelesS
1. хаа реально???))) ну хоть какой то плюс ))
2. я ненаю(( обьясни им м?
3. читай выше ^ (всмысле след пост)

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Sk8y дяяяя, он мой маленький левв))
тыы не понимаешь. когда любишь ет не заклиниваться.. по другому :// айй я прост очень хочу чтоб у нас всё получилось